21 years? Already? wow ..

Today this young man officially turns 21 yrs old. Finally, I can legally buy a drink! j/k ...

I officially can play the I-am-older-than-you game ..lol .. evil! Sinc I came to UT, almost everyone I met thought that I was older than I actually was. They got shocked when knew how old I was. But then, I'm the baby! Well, Always feel as young as a kid, makes my life a bit easier.
But the sound of 21 is heavey. GOSH I feel OLD!! Ok, I think I am gonna have a midlife crisis. Oh awesome, great excuse for the motorcycle. Do you think parents will buy that excuse? Me neither : ))

Am I supposed to think back and reflect? Well, I ain't quite sure where I stand. Four years ago, I knew exactly where I was going, and what I wanted to do. I had some sort of 10 yrs plan. But now, I have no CLUE! I only enjoy engineering when I'm solving that damn hard problem that no body can solve, otherwise it's hell boring. Chances that I graduate and get an engineering job are slim, and mostly that will be for a career change or just to get some money before moving on to something else.

I look differently to the world than I did 4 yrs ago. I mean I have changed, that's for sure. Can't tell if it's for better or worst. Can't tell if it is only growing up or because I moved to the states. Surely it's a combination. I moved from a country to another, culture to another, language to another,etc. Heck, if that doesn't change me, then I am dead! Do I regret coming to the states? Not really. I did know it's gonna be hard, and I for sure planned on getting over it. But what I didn't know is that it would be hell to go through it, and at some point, it was. But Allhamdulillah, I think that changing-lanes phase is over, or I think so. Thanks to a lot of help from Mofat and DoctaDre. I don't like to think whether I would have been better had I've been going to school in Jordan; it's a useless argument, because I can't change anything now. To avoid that argument, I think that all the good things that I'm pleased about now would've not been if I'm back in Jordan. May be other things, better things have happened to me out there, but I don't know, and they didn't happen!

As a consequence of moving here, I live in many different worlds. I learned to deal with all of them separately. Either they don't mix or I don't want them to mix. In all cases, I like to think that I wear a different hat for each world I live in. That way the only thing that change is the hat, but it is still me!

Overall I have changed. I'm not sure if it's fundamental change or not. I still have the same ideas, the same thoughts, but I just don't look at things the same anymore.


I finished my motorcycle class today. Supposedly, I can ride a bike now. I will get my license as soon as the DPS opens after Christmas.

Enough rambling ...

Happy Birthday to me!